Repentance isn’t saying you’re sorry.

Repentance isn’t feeling badly for what you’ve done.

Repentance doesn’t come from shame of doing wrong.

Repentance doesn’t come because someone tells you you’ve done something wrong.



There! I’ve said it. I’ve spit it out and it cannot be taken back.

A lot of us have grown up in fundamental evangelical churches. We’ve been taught that repentance is necessary for us to enter the kingdom of heaven. Which i admit is true. However, i also have a huge issue with the way repentance is taught.

We are taught that when we admit we have sinned and ask for forgiveness we have done the act of repentance and we have secured our position in heaven. For some of us, the teaching was taken a bit further to include a turning away from the sins that we have committed and promising to not do them again.  While both of these things are actually very wise things to do in our lives they are neither one repentance. They are merely the fruits of repentance.

The true definition of repentance, as found in the Bible, is “to change your mind”. Jesus came saying “repent for the Kingdom of Heaven is at hand”. He did not mean say you’re sorry for all the bad things you’ve done. At that point, they had no need to make amends or change their ways. They had the process of offering sacrifices for sin. No, what Jesus meant was ‘change the way you think. My kingdom is here and now?”

He wanted them to rethink everything they thought they knew about God and about His kingdom. Jesus would later go on to shatter their expectations and rather than establish a physical kingdom with a physical throne, He would die the death of a criminal, and on the third day be resurrected, thus, establishing His dominion in both the physical and heavenly realm!

If you’ve read my book Forgiving God already, you already know what true repentance means and how to live a lifestyle that resembles a repentant heart. If you haven’t picked up a copy yet i encourage you to! I dive deep into the truth of repentance and why it is so vitally important to our Christian lives today in modern America.

Okay! God bless everyone! Until next time!


identity crisis

Welcome back! Today i am continuing my Forgiving God series. I want to tackle chapter 2 today entitled identity crisis. I think we all have had a point in our lives when we had to do some self-discovery. Most of us probably went through the process of learning who we are and what we like as teens. Some of us, however, did not. I found myself on the path towards self-actualization in my early thirties.

If you remember from my last blog, sometimes circumstances in life have a way of hindering growth or halting maturity. For me, the things that happened are not important to this particular blog, but they did leave me frozen in time. My emotional maturity stopped somewhere in my early teen years and trauma blocked me from self-discovery.

In the book, i discuss a lot of the side effects of lacking identity, and the painful consequences associated. I also talk about the things that i did as a result of not really knowing who i was. I grew up a little too fast, and never even matured. Somewhere along the line, i was given an identity and i believed that it was who i was. But God came in hoping to help me become everything i was meant to be before people told me who i should be.

You know, that was the kicker. The fact that God came along is the only reason that i can sit here today typing this blog and encouraging you because your true identity can only come from Him.

I had no way of knowing who i was supposed to be before people came and told me who to be. By that, i do not mean what my talents are or what i’m good at. I mean the reason i was made, and exist. I had no way of knowing because i could not go back in time before television and movies told me i was supposed to be thin, with a nice complexion and curves. I didn’t remember who i was before social media told me that in order to snag a husband out of the sea of eligible bachelors i had to be sexy, and put out. I couldn’t know who i was supposed to be but God did. And He told me.

The real reason for any identity crisis is because we try to draw identity from comparison to worldly standards instead of taking our measure of worth and value from the Word of God. If we want to know exactly who we are, why we were created, and what we are supposed to be doing then we need to ask the one who created us. Only a builder can tell you why He built something. Only the inventor of an item can dictate the intended purpose and use for his invention.

If you’re in the process of self-discovery, wondering who you are and what you’re made for, i encourage you to ask God. Secondly, you should pick up a copy of my book because finding out who you are is only possible when you ask the one who made you, but you have to know the right Jesus in order to get the right identity.

As always if you are struggling financially and cannot afford to purchase a copy of the book, just drop me a line. I would be happy to send you a copy free of charge.

Okay. Love you guys! Until next week! ~MR

my story

I get a little personal in my book. I am usually a very private person so it was quite difficult to do so. I didn’t even put the really deep stuff into it but let me tell you what is there is literally my heart on my sleeve.

My journey has been a bumpy one. Probably not as much as some other people have faced, but challenging to me just the same. I open up and share my story in my book Forgiving God, because i believe that when we get real with each other and share ourselves openly, then we will begin to see each other as humans. Often times we objectify people over the internet because we see them from a distance. It is easy to give opinionated and even hate-laced comments or responses because we know so little about them, their history or character.

I believe that if we take the time to get to know those people, hear their story, and connect with them on a human level, we wouldn’t be so quick to judge and criticize.

I also shared some pretty intense details of my life because it needed to be shared in order for you, my reader, understand just how loving God is in our weakness, and pain. When we are in a sea of chaos and hurt we often feel like God is far away, detached from our life. Sometimes it feels as if He doesn’t care or that He can’t see our affliction. When we are in the moment of trauma or trial, the darkness seems bigger and closer than God. When we look back over our lives, to share our story with others, we can see that God was there the whole time.

That is exactly what sharing my story has done for me. It has given a new perspective completely.  Not that i don’t still go through things, we all do. But now when the darkness looms in on the horizon i have a history of walking through storms with Jesus, and this gives me hope that this too shall pass.

My story may not be easy for some people to read. If you’ve experienced abuse or sexual assault you might want to have your coping skills primed and ready. I don’t go into detail but i know from past experience the simplest of things can trigger PTSD and panic attacks. Once, i was ridiculed by a woman on facebook for mentioning (i thought in a safe environment) that women openly breastfeeding, uncovered, in public triggered me (or any nudity of any kind anywhere). She actually mocked me. It isn’t up to anyone but you to decide whether something is safe or not.

You may be able to read through the first chapter and feel nothing at all. That’s fine too. My past is a way to get to know me a little better and learn the things that have shaped and molded me into who i am today. You get insight into why i am the way that i am, and also why i believe what i believe.

Some of you may finish the book and think …man she was really broken and now she only sees broken things….this girl has a lot to learn still.  That’s okay because that is actually exactly where i am at. Do i believe what i’ve written in the book is the truth? Emphatically, YES!  Do i believe that i have a lot to learn and that someday i may learn new things that may change my perspective? Again, emphatically YES YES YES!!

I know that sounds crazy. That i would put myself out there as an authority on anything and say that i actually may change my mind someday seems absurd. But is anyone perfect now? Can anyone say with 100% certainty that everything they believe is absolute truth? (HINT: no they can’t.) I find it safer to say i stand firm in my current belief, but i reach towards deeper fuller knowledge of God.

I love learning new things. I do not feel ashamed when i am proven wrong because it means i am about to learn something new!! And i love truth… it sets you free.

Okay, so if you haven’t gotten a copy of my book yet you can go get one! I pray that it will encourage you and build you up. Be sure to leave a review!


Love you guys! ~MR